01-20-2012 - David Crowder Band

To say that I'm a fan of DCB is an understatement. I've worshipped with their music for years. They've decided to go on to new roads and I'm happy for them but I will miss them dearly...

Been singing their lyrics these last few days...

Oh great God, give us rest

We're all worn thin from all of this

At the end of our hope, with nothing left

Oh great God, give us rest

Oh great God, do your best

Have You seen this place, it's all a mess

And I've done my part too well I guess

Oh great God, do your best

Could You take a song and make it Thine?

From a crooked heart twisted up like mine

Would You open up Heaven's glory light?

Shine on in and give these dead bones life

Oh, shine on in and give these dead bones life

11-12-2011 - Restless

I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore

I’m looking for you

I am the thorn stuck in your side,

I am the one that you left behind,

I am the dried up doubting eyes  

Looking for the well that won’t run dry

Running hard for the other side

The world that I’ve always been denied

Running hard for the infinite

With the tears of the saints and hypocrites

Oh blood of black and white and gray

Death and life and night and day

One by one by one

We let our rivers run

I am restless, I am restless

I am restless, looking for you

I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore

Looking for you

I can hear you breathing,

I can hear you leading

More than just a feeling

More than just a feeling

I can feel you reaching

Pushing through the ceiling

'til the final healing

I'm looking for you

Until the sea of glass we meet

At last completed and complete

The tide of tear and pain subside

Laughter drinks them dry

I’ll be waiting

Anticipating

All that I aim for

What I was made for

With every heartbeat

All of my blood bleeds

Running inside me

Looking for you

On a side note... UPS > FedEX a million times over. This package has been in atlanta for 4 days and wasn't delivered. I patiently waited but seriously... its been in my city for that long and you can't delivered it on time? lol... logistics fail

dawn

what are you waiting for,
the day is gone?
I said I'm waiting for dawn

~switchfoot

all of my world resting on your love

In this world of news, I've found nothing new
I've found nothing pure
Maybe I'm just idealistic to assume that truth
Could be fact and form
That love could be a verb
Maybe I'm just a little misinformed

As the dead moon rises, and the freeways sigh
Let the trains watch over the tides and the mist
Spinning circles in our sky's tonight
Let the trucks roll in from Los Angeles
Maybe our stars are unanimously tired

Let your love be strong, and I don't care what goes down
Let your love be strong enough to weather through the thunder cloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your eyes
All of my world hanging on your love
Let the wars begin, let my strength wear thin
Let my fingers crack, let my whole world fall apart
Train the monkeys on my back to fight

Let it start tonight
When my world explodes, when my stars touch the ground
Falling down like broken satellites

Let your love be strong, and I don't care what goes down
Let your love be strong enough to weather through the thunder cloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your sky's
All that i am hanging on, all of my world resting on your love

~Switchfoot “Let your love be strong”

Man I love this song

Mat Kearney - Closer to Love

So Good. Enjoy!

not usually the biggest brandon heath fan but…

I was born in Tennessee, late July humidity doctors said I was lucky to be alive
I’ve been troubled since the day that I got here, trouble to the day that I disappear
That’ll be the day that I finally get it right
There is hope for me yet because God won’t forget, all the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see, he’s not finished with me yet. He’s not finished with me yet
I never really was that good in school. I talked too much, broke the rules
My teachers thought I was a hopeless fool all right.
I don’t know how but I made it through, it’s one of those things you gotta do
I always had a knack for telling the truth.
There is hope, for me yet, because God won’t forget, all the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see, he’s not finished with me yet, he’s not finished with me yet

Still wonderin’ why I’m here. Still wrestling with my fear
But oh….He’s up to something,
And the farther out I go, I’ve seen enough to know that I’m not here for nothin’
He’s up to somethin’
So *now's* my time to be a man, follow my heart as far as I can
No tellin’ where I’m ending up tonight
I never slow down or so it seems, but singing my heart is one of my dreams
All I gotta do is hold on tight
There is hope, for me yet because God won’t forget all the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see, he’s not finished with me yet, he’s not finished with me yet
He’s not finished with me yet, He’s not finished with me yet

wait and see

~brandon heath

why so downcast o my soul

1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
       so my soul pants for you, O God.

² My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
       When can I go and meet with God?

³ My tears have been my food
       day and night,
       while men say to me all day long,
       "Where is your God?"

⁴ These things I remember
       as I pour out my soul:
       how I used to go with the multitude,
       leading the procession to the house of God,
       with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
       among the festive throng.

⁵ Why are you downcast, O my soul?
       Why so disturbed within me?
       Put your hope in God,
       for I will yet praise him,
       my Savior and ⁶ my God.
       My ^[c] soul is downcast within me;
       therefore I will remember you
       from the land of the Jordan,
       the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.

⁷ Deep calls to deep
       in the roar of your waterfalls;
       all your waves and breakers
       have swept over me.

⁸ By day the LORD directs his love,
       at night his song is with me—
       a prayer to the God of my life.

⁹ I say to God my Rock,
       "Why have you forgotten me?
       Why must I go about mourning,
       oppressed by the enemy?"

¹⁰ My bones suffer mortal agony
       as my foes taunt me,
       saying to me all day long,
       "Where is your God?"

¹¹ Why are you downcast, O my soul?
       Why so disturbed within me?
       Put your hope in God,
       for I will yet praise him,
       my Savior and my God.

Psalm 42

Sometimes your calling, comes in dreams
Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze,
You reach for the deepest hope in me,
And call out for the things of eternity.
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say,

Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans,
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands,
Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand?
I know that you will finish what you began.
These broken parts you redeem,
Become the song, that I can sing

Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness,
And the fear that I'll fail you in the end,
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but you can.
Here I am, Lord send me,
I wanna live my life as an offering
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Here I am, all my life an offering to you, to you
Somehow my story, Is a part of your plan,
Here I am

 

“here i am”

~downhere *thanks Gui*

tougher days

The last few months have been great. With the exception of a few rough spots... I've had an absolutely awesome time. The inner pessimist in me has always wondered how long it would last. Doubts about this roll I've been on have been creeping in the last few days. I've been at home and without work to do at the school. I don't believe them though.

You know when you have too much time to think and then your mind becomes your own worst enemy?

Like I said before... I won't be shaken. I trust God and the plans he has for my life. He has been so good to me. The constant in my life, as always, is my relationship with Christ. He has been so strong for me. He is my source, my motivation, my strength, my hope...

I still don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I see a lot of people around me that have a set plan. They know exactly what they want and they're going for it. I'm really happy for them. I hope God blesses their endeavors. I'm definitely not like that. Sometimes that worries me. I would describe my personality as driven... that is hard when I don't know what to strive for. This definitely worried me a lot in the past. I've dedicated my efforts into getting to know my Lord. My impact in this life will ultimately be because and through him... so I'm honestly not worried.

I've been listening to a few new albums lately. The new Jars of Clay album of course. It hasn't grown on me yet. It takes me a long time to get into their albums. There are select songs that definitely touch my heart but overall... it hasn't gotten to me yet.

I like the following songs ... Boys (Lesson one), Hero, Scenic Route

Haha, right after I wrote that... I heard Hero again and the lyrics are exactly how I feel right now.

We’re in shock from the failed emotion
No cause in a shadow land
We sing while the city's burning
No room, no escape, no plan
We all never thought it would end this way

And we need a hero
To save us from ourselves
We need a hero
To save us from ourselves

Save us from ourselves
Save us from our fear
When the sirens wail, we need a hero here

We hide on our knees in silence
Maybe God doesn't hear at all
And the wait overtakes the violence
And we watch as the giants fall
We're not gonna let it end this way

~Hero
Jars of Clay

I'm currently in love with a new band. Chasen. This is from one of their songs. I really like their sound.

Take a storm and watch sing
Take the thunder create a scene
Take a light and throw it across the sky
For the whole world to see
Take the ocean take the tide
Sweep it in here on beaches white
Wipe my eyes and let me see
The beauty of Your sunrise
There is nothing like You
There is nothing underneath the son
Without You, You are all and all is good
There is nothing like You

Take a branch and watch it break
Take the snow and watch it fall
As the green begins to grow
Lord Your growing my soul

~Chasen

It's been almost 4 months now since Christina and I broke up. I haven't really updated any about that. I've done this on purpose. I needed time before I could rationally talk about it. I think she and I both got to the point where we agreed that it was the right thing to do. I don't regret the relationship. That's funny... because I regret some of the short ones I had before that. She and I worked to make the relationship as God honoring as we knew how. We kept ourselves pure. It wasn't easy to let go but it was the right thing to do. I'm really glad there isn't any bitterness ... or anger ... or resentment ... It was a clean break and probably the best breakup I've had. These are kind of cheerful terms for a breakup but... that is how it is. I learned a lot from the relationship.

I guess that is all I have to say on that for now.

One of my all time favs

 

Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about This is the correlation of salvation and love Don't drop your arms Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart With quiet words I'll lead you in La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long Don't you believe that you've been deceived? that you're no better than... The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of This is the correlation of salvation and love Don't drop your arms Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart With quiet words I'll lead you in This is the correlation of salvation and love (Don't drop your arms) Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart With quiet words I'll lead you in You're so brilliant, don't soon forget You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart You're so brilliant, don't soon forget You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart You're so brilliant (This is the correlation) Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms) You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart) Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark) ~Anberlin

I love the focus on the decisions made on a day to day basis… and it always makes me think of how often I take answered prayer for granted. I’ve started writing down the things I pray for and when they’re answered.

Joy Williams

 

She went Indie! I heard her new stuff on her myspace site, she even posted one of the songs for free downloading :). I love the mood the new cd seems to carry. So joyful, no pun intended. I really liked charmed life, and lose myself. I can’t wait for the full release. The music sounds very different from typical Christian Music. I think that is why she separated from the label.     just sit tight don't you even think about going anywhere stay where you are open up your eyes to what is already there what i'm about to tell you, what i'm about to say don't even let it throw you it just might change your day Charmed Life ~Joy Williams

Personality Type: INFJ

I took the Jung typology test http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm.

I’ve done it before but I haven’t paid much attention to it. It was pretty accurate. My personality type is INFJ, the protector.

http://www.personalitypage.com/INFJ.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INFJ

The following is from the wikipedia article.

INFJs are conscientious and value-driven. They seek meaning in relationships, ideas, and events, with an eye toward better understanding themselves and others. Using their intuitive skills, they develop a clear vision, which they then execute decisively to better the lives of others. Like their INTJ counterparts, INFJs regard problems as opportunities to design and implement creative solutions.^[12]

INFJs are quiet, private individuals who prefer to exercise their influence behind the scenes. Although very independent, INFJs are intensely interested in the well-being of others. INFJs prefer one-on-one relationships to large groups. Sensitive and complex, they are adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner. ^[13]

Accounting for 1–3% of the population,^[14] INFJs have a rich, vivid inner life, which they may be reluctant to share with those around them. Nevertheless, they are congenial in their interactions, and perceptive of the emotions of others. Generally well-liked by their peers, they may often be considered close friends and confidants by most other types. However, they are guarded in expressing their own feelings, especially to new people, and so tend to establish close relationships slowly. INFJs tend to be easily hurt, though they may not reveal this except to their closest companions. INFJs may "silently withdraw as a way of setting limits," rather than expressing their wounded feelings.^[15] This behavior may leave others confused and upset.

INFJs tend to be sensitive, quiet leaders with a great depth of personality. They are intricately and deeply woven, mysterious, and highly complex, sometimes puzzling even to themselves. They have an orderly view toward the world, but are internally arranged in a complex way that only they could understand. Abstract in communicating, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, INFJs tend to be creative and easily inspired.^[16] Yet they may also do well in the sciences, aided by their intuition.^[17]

02-17-2008

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I'm leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And It's just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it's only You

01-31-2008

Cuando la vida me da golpes y me manda para el suelo
es cuando yo mas siento que tengo que levantarme
que dar la cara al miedo, es una forma de vencerlo
no voy a darme por vencido, no voy a darle mi vida el miedo
el miedo es un asesino que mata los sentimientos
se que no estoy solo, yo se que dios esta aquí adentro

Y necesito silencio para poder encontrar
mi propia vos y mi verdad....
Y al final de la oscuridad
no me siento solo, se que estas conmigo

Hoy voy a levantarme y no voy a resignar mi corazón
hacer lo que quice y no pude
No lo voy a aceptar hoy, voy a buscar estar mejor
la vida tiene solución, aquí no hay nada imposible
no creo en el jamas.... no! (X2)

Si darse por vencido es una forma de morir,
entonces yo jamas quiero darle el gusto a la muerte
Pienso en mi familia, y el corazón late más fuerte
Que no se puede vivir pensando en cuando se va a morir
y dicen que soñar es tanto como soñar estando vivo
Yo creo en el presente y eso me aleja de la muerte

Y necesito silecio para encontrar,
mi propia vos y mi verdad
Y al final de la oscuridad
no me siento solo, se que estas conmigo

Hoy voy a levantarme y no voy a resignar mi corazón
hacer lo que quice y no pude
No lo voy a aceptar hoy, voy a buscar estar mejor
la vida tiene solución, aquí no hay nada imposible
no creo en el jamas.... no! (X2)

No Creo en el jamas
~Juanes