This is an extension of the about me post (which I’ve yet to finish). I guess these are the results of the events in my life and my personality.
Who I am
My deepest longing is to be a man after God’s own heart.
I’m passionate/excitable. If I put my heart behind something then things usually go well. I can focus my mind and effort into it and overcome just about anything. If my heart isn’t in it… I suck. I’m not a lukewarm worker. I don’t do stuff just cause…
I’m a dreamer. I like big plans, I like crazy, I like living and doing things in an epic fashion. So I’m usually at the extreme of … epically doing nothing/time wasting and doing something outrageously awesome. Balancing is really hard for me.
I hate boundaries. I hate them between people and I hate them with life. I need freedom. If rules make sense to me then I will follow them as strictly as anyone else but if they don’t I tend to rebel. Legalism kills me. This is one of the reasons I love ultimate Frisbee. There are few rules… and the ones that exist rely upon people’s honor to live up to them.
My self esteem has been all over the place during my life. It tends to be on the lower end of things. I’ve mostly been a loner and it takes a lot of effort on my part to make friends, join groups. That being said, my self esteem doesn’t stem from other people (except for a select few). I have set standards for myself that I try to live up to. Sometimes I probably come off as cocky but that is usually just my insecurities coming out. The only cure for this is when I think of God’s love and forgiveness. He has been so gracious to me. He knows the things I’ve done and still works through me. I don’t get it…
I trust quickly … I’m gullible from time to time. I love giving people a chance. I’m also patient when it comes to people letting me down. I do have a breaking point however… and once the person goes past… I can forgive but I usually don’t trust them again. This works the other way as well. Once you earn my loyalty… I defend with all I can.
I trust my intuition. I get feelings about stuff and I usually go with it. Sometimes this makes my decisions seem abrupt/ not well thought out.
I love people. Especially the ones that live like life means something.
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You sure I didn't write most of this?
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